I had an interesting conversation with an old friend of mine this evening, and it got me thinking.... in the past few yrs i've pretty much "lost" contact with a few girlfriends and as time goes by the numbers keep growing... the stories are all the same, somehow out of the blue its no longer necessary to be polite... no phone call, "sorry can't make it to the plans we'd made this evening..." or even better, making plans going out and leaving early because their "real" plans are for later... it's kind of sad when i think about it really. I link it back to the fact that at the age group i'm at, most girls/women are in a frantic search for "the one", be it "that one boyfriend" or "husband" they feel they need to fulfill their lives at this point and time... i weirdly (i guess) am not in that mode, in that frantic search... a few different reasons could be to blame with me not sharing this obsession that they all have.... i have been married, happily once and unhappily the other (if the second one even counted... strong suspicion that one went to the "other side").... i started out young 18 to be exact (take that look off your face i'm from Tx, that's what we do!).... i found it hard to be faithful to either spouse and i found it even more difficult to find myself committing to someone for the REST OF MY LIFE!! So scary when you think of it!! I don't come from a disfunctional family either, my parents have been happily married for over 33 yrs!! Back to my friends, i wonder if once they are in the shoes i was once in before, if they will change their mind about this obsession with "happily ever after"... i do sound a bit synical i agree, but i find i've saved myself alot of time.... the life they have lived so far i have lived in reverse (having my mid life crisis at 23 not 43 running off w/ a younger man)... and i have the rest of my youth to enjoy my life, my career and my freedom to pick as i choose and not frantically settling for fear my time is almost up!!
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